Thinking negative

Right now, i’m feeling ashamed that i cant do IELTS practice test online. I’m so mad abt this problem, mad at myself because i was not working hard. My result will answer in Sunday. Everyone in my class almost good except me absolutely. For example, in english my score which have ever gotten 6 in every test. While they nearly all got 7 or 8 even 9. Specially, my bf who is excellent student in English. He hasn’t tried his best then he still got 7.0-7.5 points. I really really jealous, i’m not good enough to be with him. I have a weak stantard of knowledge but he’s not.