PLEASE HELP ME WITH THIS ESSAY

“ I’m tired of being myself.”
That was the last line in the diary I wrote last year.

I had been wondered a lot about my self-identity, my fears, and my everything. It was always hard for me to answer the question: “ Who am I? What am I searching for?”

Like the others, I have been raised in a good environment where I have a wide range of opportunities to explore the potential power that lies inside me. I have caring parents who allow me to do anything I want. I have enthusiastic teachers who could spend hours and hours explaining my dumb questions. People would think my life is such a blessing and should be grateful for what I have. I agree but somehow, life is not as that simple as it seems to be.

I grew up hearing the sayings “ Just be yourself” but self what? No one told me. I grew up learning things that I had no interest in but had to get good grades otherwise I would be given a severe reprimand. I grew up feeling that a person like me should not exist in this world and I did think about suicide. I chased for the others’ approval when I should had been listened to myself. Consequently, I experienced depression, anxiety, and also fears. There was like a phantom inside me that could kill me whenever I was weak. I remember nights after nights crying because of trying to find a way to escape from those things as I got tired.

I started taking up new hobbies, one of those was writing journals: jot down my thoughts, feelings which I could not tell anyone, and what happened every day. I also joined many community projects where I met new people, learn new skills and gain valuable things. It was like a whole new world that I had never experienced before. Luckily, my mental health got better over time. Until now, I can reflect on myself and feel proud of how I overcome those hardships. I love how I was confronted with every issue, no matter how unpleasant they were. I love how I chose to drop that knife as they were going to hurt me when I was at my lowest point. And I love how I became a brand new version of myself.

Mental health is not a rare problem. It can happen to any young adult like me. However, I find that people are lack of information about this issue. In my perspective, schools should allocate their budget to employ school psychologists. This is to ensure that every student has the chance to seek help when they need it. Moreover, adults should pay more attention to their kids because family therapy is always a good option. I want to use my experience and ability to raise the awareness of both teenagers and parents about mental health and how important it is. No one deserves to suffer the consequences of mental illness.