Please help me with my poem

I know this might be crazy..but I need my poem to be checked on correct English before June 14th 12 o'clock.
Hope there is someone who can help me. my email adres is: Email Removed
I am from Holland. I REALLY HOPE THAT SOMEONE CAN CORRECT IT.
Here is my poem:

You appear into my little existence,
You invite me to talk, I feel the resistance.
I don’t want to be dependent on you.
And I don’t want to bind myself emotional too.

You make a journey through my mind,
Your reassuring words are making me blind.
Full of respect, I listen to your voice.
It feels like I have no other choice.

You put to much well meant energy in me,
To win my suspicious faith, and let me see,
How the world works and who I am,
How to handle unwise people and how to manage them.

You do everything to persuade me that your words are sincere,
I let you feel my fear by showing a tear.
It gave me a lot of worries inside,
But I finally win this battle and it makes me pride.

Now I can talk with you without any sense of shame,
Ventilating my heart is becoming the aim.
I feel so good, so strong, but please ...don’t leave me behind,
That will have such a failing impact on my mind.

But my fear is not a mental creation,
See, it’s again a fixation!!!
You let me standing in that icy, cold rain
I can feel that nasty stinging pain.

It makes me feel gloomy, it torns me inside,
How can I be so stupid, why did I retried?
A slap in my face, so thoughtless acted,
Too blind voor attention, too much attracted.

I wished I wouldn’t make the same mistake over and over again,
But I don’t have a working phenomenal plan.
I am sure that I will hurt myself once more,
Just like all those times before.

But maybe ever I can say with pride,
I have found someone who stays my whole life by my side!