Message from A Toy Poodle

hello, could you help me with my essay? I need some grammatical help, and a few advice on how to make the sentences more natural. thank you!

Bored by the staycation when everyone had gone for a trip, I started to talk to my toy poodle last night, before bed. She hadn't been awake until my forcible interruption and could do nothing but wagging tail like she'd been expected for a bedtime story. However it was not going to be a story, as I suddenly realize how badly I treat my little companion and, rather than talking nonsense to her, I decideded to reflect on some unnecessary questions with no possible answer. I began with the question: "Do you really mean to be a slave that is born to obey orders and entertain the human masters?", "It's written in the genes isn't it," I thought to myself, "So it's natural." I concluded.
Hang on, if it was not for the activities of homo sapiens, there shouldn't(shan't?) be such thing who bends down to(kowtows to?) another species or rather, apes. Therefore it's not natural, it's manmade. How wrong I was just seconds ago. Making judgements isn't nice thing to do particularly in public for what arguments and even hatred it might cause. And there are no single truth but inumerable facts, which is a judgement i think to be challengeable. It's rather a matter of whether or not an individual or group embrace the facts and believe. All the time we turn a blind eye to some of them, simply because it hurts your interests, your way of life and your dignity. What we choose to believe is what seems favourable to our conditions and discriminate unconsciously, just like what i had concluded that a dog isn't a creation from nature, seems very wrong to myself now. If human is the creation of nature, then the dog should be. Nature grant the dogs a few properties(attributes?) wolves don't have, such as the ability to appreciate vegetables and fruits(often found in the scrap heap of human settlements), which is crucial to a differentiation.
So since everything are very much written, can we avert our own destruction?
It's really an unneccessary question for me.
I ended my speach to her with a vow to practising Buddhism when i'm older.