I'm very sorry that you are so frustrated and concerned. Consider this. Most native speakers who have very good English have learned it through years of reading good English.
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BernWillChris it seems that the most comprehensive book out there only covers about 1% of all the grammar rules in English.I don't know where you got that idea. Most sound grammars will cover nearly all the rules of the language used by the majority of native speakers.