Is this how it's going to be?

full, so full of lust
A strike against me but it's only in me
Sweet words coax a shuddering scream

I think, I tell myself I hear some grievance
Minute hesitations; dust under a wave of rose coloured resolution
Caressing the dust as the wave drowns me

Nothings good, I won't pretend.
Act all alone, The universe doesn't exist. But I know it does.