Introspecting Weirdness...........

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Introspecting weirdness

Am I weird or is it just I don’t know that almost everyone has weird moments. Its past midnight here and the disquietude feeling which I am getting feels so unnatural to me. Do everyone has it? Do people feel as much weird as I am feeling right now?
Not everyone is as susceptible to weirdness with a change. But I am. I am surely a little unearthly with this. A person very close to me left the city 2 days back. I cried. I showed my emotions and felt very light. I thought fine. This is it. She is gone and things are going to get back to where they were but that very corn was gathering the steam inside and at night it popped up. That same disgusting feel that ridicules me so much that I feel like thinking of the most pessimistic thing on earth crept up. I don’t look for reasons that moment. I don’t look to find a person to talk to. I don’t frown. I don’t smile. I just keep that straight face thinking that I have been robbed of my soul. In fact I just felt the same a few minutes back and somehow I have realized introspecting is not all that bad a thing.
If I look for reasons , I will be definite about one thing. It is definitely not because I hide my emotions or I feel gutted. I cried you see and I usually do that when I feel like. So what takes me to that planet of gloom. What drives me to just lay back and watch that stationary computer on my bedside imagining that it will talk the very next minute. I wish to find a reason but is there a reason? Is it just another of those inexplicable feelings that one gets when overly exuberated or when despondent to death?
The reasons are different every time. The situations vary to wide degree. The feel is the same. Is it that I love the person who left me so much that it arose a situation so bitterly vague. If this is so, then the reason may be that it happens to me when something hugely changes around me. Something that is important to me. Something I have been a part of very closely. A big sigh again and I am again not convinced of the reasons I am giving to myself. The reason being the last time situation. Nothing important happened that time. I was working on my laptop when the popcorn busted inside. I got off my laptop and like always went blank. A complete blank and I could hear the slightest of voices with a discretion. Again, I felt as if I am the only one.
Its good to know that I am perfectly fine most of the times but I am still looking for the answer that NASA is looking for. Are there more of us or precisely more of me?