I need with this letter that I am writing. How can I make it better.

Once I'm done with my probation in two months. I will be joining the Marines. I know I have been talking about it for a while now, but if it wasn't for my DUI, I would've already enlisted. It was a difficult decision to make because I'll be away from the boys for a while. I've thought about it over and over. I believe it's for the best. Every chance I get, I will come visit them and spend my days off with them. I will Skype them as well when I am away. I'm simply doing this because I need to build a future for myself and for our sons. It's an 80% chance that I will enlist, my recruiter told me that, "I have to get a judge to sign my waiver." He also said, "since it's my first time getting in trouble with the law, that it shouldn't be a problem". For the time being I can't sign no paper work or unable to take the ASVAB. I know I can stay here and go to college, but it's going to be unmanageable for me. Especially if I want to get a home of my own, doing homework, paying bills and giving you child support is only going to make my life difficult. I understand that nothing in life is easy and nothing is given to us. I must do what I have to do. I have to give our sons the best future I can give them even if it means losing my life. I would like for them to receive the best education they can get. Xavi will soon start going to school and I want him and Gerrard to go to a private school. I want them to be well educated, well mannered and be able to enjoy their lives without them having to work until college. I am obligated to assist them and teach them to be the best they can be. You and I want the best for our boys that is something we both can agree to. They are growing up so fast. Xavi is starting to talk and soon Gerrard will follow. Xavi will be able to join a sports team or a martial art class only if he wishes to. I'm not going to pressure them to do something they don't like to do. Also, they will be old enough for me to take them camping, amusement parks, sports games and so many other activities. I can't wait, but at the same time I don't want them to grow up too fast either. I can't wait for them to tell me what their favorite colors will be, their favorite foods, favorite places they love to go and what they love to do. Hopefully in a couple of years I will be able to take them around the world, show them different places, show them different cultures. I know they love me because I can see it in their eyes when they visit me. It just sucks that I'm going to be away, but it's for the best. My parents didn't play with me or took me to places. I might of have both in my life, but I felt that I was alone. They didn't show me their love like other parents or taught me things about the world. Everything I know is because I had to learn on my own. The truth is you showed me another side of love that I never experienced. When I was with you I was truly happy, I have never felt that way until you came into my life. I wish things would of been better, it's only a wish and wishes only come true in fairy tales. I wasn't going to tell you about me leaving, but I am obligated to tell you because of the boys, they must know. Also, I don't want you to think I was going to abandon them. I would never do that, even before you and I met. I told myself that I wouldn't do that to my children. I also believe it is an opportunity for me to meet somebody new. I recognize that I am a good person and I deserve a good person in my life. Hopefully they are able to understand that my sons are my main priority. A person who is able to accept my past and that they're capable to recognize my good intentions towards them. The mistakes that I have committed in my past have only taught me to be a better individual. I fought through the pain and that makes me a more substantial person. That when somebody comes into my life I will be able to keep them happy, make them feel safe and I will not commit the same mistakes I did with you. I am not the sort of person who only wants someone in their life because I'm alone. I desire someone who I can grow with and love one another no matter how dark the situation gets. My mind is a lot more mature than it was a year ago. I have learned a lot in the last couple of months. Every good person has a dark side, but that doesn't imply that they are bad. It just signifies that everyone has their bad moments. Even a bad person has those moments. I refuse to allow my past to define me as the person who I can be. I know I'm going off topic. You can stop reading if you wish. I'm just expressing my thoughts. I don't have someone I can go talk to. My friends only think about getting wasted, hooking up with girls and partying. I'm not about that life anymore. They don't seem to understand what I am going through because they don't have children of their own. Someday they will and I hope they don't go through what I did. I would never wish it on anyone. The agony and recovery time is just too unbearable. The truth is, nothing happens for a reason. The decisions that one makes are the reason why things happen and for the reason it occurs. I may not be capable to comprehend everything about life. What I do understand is that we can not blame life for our misfortunes. Life is giving us the opportunity to choose a better reality. It took me a while to be able to experience happiness again. As well, a long time to finally be able to smile without faking it. I am not satisfied with my life at the moment, but the important thing is that I know I can be happy once again. I can tell you about how much I care about you but it's senseless. You have made your decision and I am accepting it. Deep down it hurts but there is nothing I can do about it. It does not matter who or what I become you will not see me the same. Even if I find the right words to say to you, it would not matter. I finally understand why you broke up with me, you wanted me to be a man that you needed me to be and a father that our sons needed. What makes me irritated is that there are men cheating on their spouse, doing far more worst things than what I did and yet they manage to get another opportunity, sometimes two or three. All I wanted was an opportunity to demonstrate that I am worth it. The hard part is over, now I must remain focused and not commit the same mistakes I did in the past.