There is virtually no difference in meaning, but I'd say the version with "have" is quite a bit more common. The version with "am" feels a tad more literary. When I first read the sentences, I also fancied that the version with "am" carried a slightly stronger suggestion that you would do it one day (or you expected to, at least).
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