E-Mail that changes my life, subject - Parents.

This is important, i have been through a lot, i need to make sure this is right. The email is being forwarded to many high powered buisnes men in close dealings with my father. Any help or sugestions would be most appriciated,

Thanks

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Dad..... (his name),

You have *** up......

I was hoping that INTEGRITY was an important value in your life. In mine it has served as a principal that I always try my hardest to stick to.
Over the past year I have tried to space myself from the 'TV soap' that is my life. I was hell-bent on not letting it screw up my future and degree. In conclusion I have done well, at the expense of naively thinking that you had dealt with the situation in a gentlemanly way... I was blind, and so far from the truth. This in its own right has got me so worked up that I’m starting to blame myself... hence I'm writing to you, hopefully with a less clouded mind and seeing a little clearer through this imposed mist.

So I get back to Integrity, and the point of change. My Mother, (her name), could never hurt a fly, she loves whole heartedly and asks for little in return... a little respect and love. She is not a wolf in sheep’s clothing but a genuine lady (LADY - a woman who behaves in a way that is traditionally considered to be suitable for a woman). She asked you a simple question, "Are you seeing anyone?" and when you gave that answer of "NO" you lied, on top of which you have lied a lot more. This is not a lie that can be shrugged off as ' I thought it best not to tell her for her own good' or 'But the situation I am in at the moment is not suitable'.... this is serious. A tad hypocritical maybe, I have lied, but not at the suffering of others, and even when I cheated on girlfriends (done a few times I dare say) I have had the balls to tell them and face the music.

Gentleman - A man who is polite and behaves well towards other people, especially women... of which you are not.

Integrity - The quality of being honest and having strong moral principles that you refuse to change... something you lack.

This CV doesn't look good, my family idol has been destroyed and I have lost a father that once cared for 'the family', and not just himself. I read this and I’m embarrassed, I’m embarrassed to talk about you to my friends, you are no longer my reference but my subscript. In many ways I have got closer to you as a friend, with your mental and social regression, but that’s not what a father is for, words such as ‘mentor’ and 'idol' come in to context when describing a parent.

As I re-read this e-mail I question my acidity, am I too harsh or jumping the gun? No... I am only wording how I feel, and I have had too much time to think about it. From the depths of wanting to impose staggering physical harm, to the fine tuned ability of forgetting about it, I write with a calm tone and a reflective note, finally getting this off my chest.
I'm sorry; you might be sorry; but most of all my Mother has suffered, not deserved of this onslaught of pain and anguish, she deserves better,

All my feelings,

(my name)

P.S. I wrote in an e-mail as it is a tactile medium, by phone I would have lost my bias and composure, the keys of a Qwerty Keyboard don’t reflect the pressure in which I press them.