College Application Essay

I'm trying to write my college essay and I'm not a very strong english student. Any advice would be greatly appriciated.

There I watch, hopelessly as my two lifelong friends get messed up on the outskirts of Applegate Lake. Although we've attended different schools most of our lives we had always been the best of friends but also the fiercest competitors. If anything were to ruin our friendship I thought it would be the difference in schools; however, it was instead our difference of morals.

For I have lost all respect for my once two best friends. I had to endure watching them drink a few times before but that's not what got me, watching them smoke that joint of weed is what pulled me into reality. I could not anymore watch as two kids I once loved as my own brothers threw away all their talent. We were probably the best trio of athletes in town and they treated it like a joke. I do not know what I should do for I have tried to get them to stop before. I can't hang out with them and just watch them do this anymore because it hurts too much. I know there are many just like them including most of my other friends but this is different. I grew up with these two kids and we were by each other’s sides the whole way... until now.

I feel guilt run through my vanes as if I'm leaving them behind but I can do no more. They chose their path and I chose mine. I tried to get them on the right course but I failed time after time. Everyone else could have been doing the same thing and I would be fine but since these two friends have I feel alone. Never less I will follow my own path never rearing off no matter how hard it gets. I will take the road less traveled by.