As kid

"Oh well, he is gorgeous." Jessica shrugged as if this excused any flaws. Which, in her book, it probably did."There's a lot more to him than that.""Really? Like what?"I wished I had let it go. Almost as much as I was hoping he'd been kidding about listening in."I can't explain it right... but he's even more unbelievable behind the face." The vampire who wanted to be good - who ran around saving people's lives so he wouldn't be a monster... stared toward the front of the room."Is that possible?" She giggled.I ignored her, trying to look like I was paying attention to Mr. Varner."So you like him, then?" She wasn't about to give up."Yes," I said curtly."I mean, do you really like him?" she urged."Yes," I said again, blushing. I hoped that detail wouldn't register in her thoughts.She'd had enough with the single syllable answers. "How much do you like him?""Too much," I whispered back. "More than he likes me. But don't see how I can help that." I sighed one blush blending into the next.Then, thankfully, Mr. Varner called on Jessica for an answer.She didn't get a chance to start on the subject again during class, and as soon as the bell rang, I took evasive action."In English, Mike asked me if you said anything about Monday night," I told her."You're kidding! What did you say?!" she gasped, completely sidetracked.

"I told him you said you had a lot of fun - he looked pleased."

"Almost as much as I was hoping he'd been kidding about listening in."

what does it mean?