An Inescapable Equilibrium

I materialized, perplexed, with a raw chill dazed and alone

Love consistently felt like an obligation. Well being, under no circumstance, a meaningful instigation

Just a devious technique of protecting someone's home.

Conveniently maintained to release the customary funds

Abruptly overstepped and outweighed

Warmth in the passage of extraction was once felt

But there remained a responsibility to delay.

Realisation that ones self was only a third

A subdivision of an equation of grains

Happiness a secret, concealed within a small circle

Made it easier to transpose stains into a play.

Innocence a momentary whisper in the wind

Survival took top shelf

Glancing down into an uninhabited black pit

As the allotment of age began to wilt.

Time soon became the positive in my actions

Nothing lasts forever

Transition soon became a preference of my sanction

So past glimpses of my future could be coerced to be better.

Try as I did, my trials and errors considered much necessary mistakes

To agitate the naivety in my focuses away

Too much I wore my heart on my sleeves

Even still that is an imperfection in my existence today.

Though now it is only designated to those who merit it

They know who they are

Though only 2 have an unfading permit

The legitimate dimensions of my heart

It is the inevitability of all living physicalities, that all things must come to an end

It was her, my seraph, who revealed to me, in our placidity, that I will be remembered by them both for a lot more than just a best friend

Nevertheless, I still have a fear, an immortal tear in an awareness I can not shake

That whilst I've made a stamp in history, I'm trying to outrun a destiny already made

It's complicated to believe but it seems so centered

It's perceptible by where I've been placed

Fate will have me exit as I've entered

Down a path and out the way I came.