A free-writing essay...please help.

We were asked to write a one-entry journal. I really need some help, can someone please proof-read and give suggestions. If you have to change the whole sentence or paragraph, it's fine I appreciate it very much. Thank you in advance.

Journal Entry #1 November 12

Today is my 21^st birthday. I was really excited for this day to come before because I thought this would be the day that I’ll be completely free and can decide for myself. But I realized that it was not that easy to grow up and become adult that fast. I figured that everything takes time to be realized and be thought of. Just like growing up, it is not like an instant noodle that if you pour hot water in it, it’s done. But instead, growing up needs a lot of ingredients for it to be completely achieve. It needs time, attitude, knowledge, wisdom, understanding, and experience.

I woke up very early today, it is 4’o clock in the morning and I’m still not getting up my bed. I’ve been thinking about everything, the past, the present and the future. After my thinking back of the past, I’ve realized that I haven’t really accomplished that much. I’m still not satisfied with who I am now. I still lack the attitude, the knowledge, the wisdom, the understanding, the experience and more importantly, time. I need time. With time, I can do and accomplish more. But it was too late for me now. I am 21 now and the time that I’ve wasted that I should have used to create and attain what I lack today is gone. Time passed by me that fast. I regret doing nothing at those days that I should have used for something productive. But then I realized this morning when I woke up that those days and nights were never wasted. It comes to my thinking that those were the stages of preparation for the advent of adulthood. And that this day, my 21^st birthday, is supposed to be the day that I start entering the real adulthood. The time has come for me to choose between paths, that I should take for the next chapters of my life. Right now, I’ve decided to take the path that is more important and essential for me, and it is taking the path on my career. A career which can be both my work and my hobby. I just hope that this path that I’ll be taking will lead me to something and someone I’ll be happy in the future or when I’m old.

While I journey to the path that I’m taking, I’m never going to forget what lead me there and why I’m there. I’ll always consider the things that matter to me most. I will not stop learning lessons and creating good memories. Time here will be either my friend or my enemy. I’ll just have to learn how to meddle with it without affecting the path I’m taking. I’ll treat them properly with care and precautions. I’ll be happy to welcome everything that will be on my path with positive comebacks. Through the ups and downs, easy and hard, happiness and sadness, and the light and the dark, I’ll continue to be myself. From this day on, I’ll be writing in this journal to record everything.